The Beast

For a long time, the beast has keep itself invisible. Its as if, the beast got tamed, not able to harm anyone. For awhile there, I thought peace had finally made its way through my doorstep. Yet, I was wrong. In fact, I AM wrong.

I don't know about others, but since I can remember, there's a beast in my heart, being part of me. Every now and then, when the cage forces its way too tightly around the beast, the beast would break free and cause havoc around. People that really know me, knows what I am talking about. The beast did a lot of damage that would scar my past forever. Most of it only my family knows, I've kept it a secret for a long time.

Then, she appeared in my life. She's perfect in every way, almost too perfect. She even calmed, tamed the beast. Although, in the beginning of our story, the beast tried its very best to fight back. Yet, after some time, the beast was conquered. For a long time, everything went so right, so peaceful. Except for a few minor outbreaks. I thought, she is the one. She is the one who can take me for who I am. But, recently, she left. Even she can't stand me=[. Its a sad sight, but I moved on. Let the past remain to be the past. But, what I don't know is, the worst consequence is coming my way.

Tonight, I felt the beast again. Tonight, she isn't there for me. Tonight, I am alone. I felt its rage, I felt its desire for chaos. I went out, breathed in the cool soothing air, have a nice stroll in the night. I reached home, all's fine. But then, I got worried, what if this happens again? but in a much larger scale like last time? I don't wanna hurt the people I love and care about. Maybe, I'll have to stay away, until I solve this.

Guys, please do forgive me for what I have done or what I'm going to do=='' For I have no guarantee. At the mean time, I will try my best to control the beast in me.

Special thanks to Choong Pei Ying, for being by my side when I needed you, you've helped a lot. Thanks my true friend=]

"A true danger--Anger"